Not above all else. I was already thinking about it before she mentioned that part. That was an awesome bonus. What really drew me to the idea was the idea of having a coparenting partner. Plus it would be cheaper not having to figure out finances for an egg donor AND a gestational carrier. And, let's be honest, Laura's gorgeous. I could do worse as far as the second set of genes could go. I'd be a fucking moron to not at least consider the offer she put on the table.
...I do sometimes forget that, actually... Laura and I have been friends for a really long time. She's part of the Dead Folks Club with us. She's a really good person. If she were putting the offer on the table to you instead of me, for example, I'd wholeheartedly recommend you go for it.
I think I've kind of already made my decision and I'm just now realizing that I needed to talk it out.
I mean it is one hell of a bonus, I have a feeling it won't save you worry completely in the long run, but you know the kid will be healthy, most likely, which is something. I guess I get it, though, there's something reassuring about knowing that you're not going to do it alone and it's not the same when it's just having a support system. So I get it. I do.
Guess I need to get to know her a little bit better, but I think that you're right - you knew what you wanted all along, you just needed to talk it into the ground first to feel like you are okay to give yourself what you want.
Well, no, not completely. It'll help, for sure. But yeah. I mean, and Laura's been trying to figure out how she wants to go about having a child without a partner, too, so it's almost kind of like the stars aligned.
You should, you'd like her. She actually reminds me a little bit of you, but she also reminds me a lot more of Bev.
But yeah, you know how I am. A few years of therapy isn't going to completely undo a lifetime of being gaslit by the most important women in my life, so I'm going to doubt myself for a while on...everything, but especially on things related to bringing a completely new human being into the world and being responsible for him or her. So I appreciate you being a sounding board.
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...I do sometimes forget that, actually... Laura and I have been friends for a really long time. She's part of the Dead Folks Club with us. She's a really good person. If she were putting the offer on the table to you instead of me, for example, I'd wholeheartedly recommend you go for it.
I think I've kind of already made my decision and I'm just now realizing that I needed to talk it out.
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Guess I need to get to know her a little bit better, but I think that you're right - you knew what you wanted all along, you just needed to talk it into the ground first to feel like you are okay to give yourself what you want.
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You should, you'd like her. She actually reminds me a little bit of you, but she also reminds me a lot more of Bev.
But yeah, you know how I am. A few years of therapy isn't going to completely undo a lifetime of being gaslit by the most important women in my life, so I'm going to doubt myself for a while on...everything, but especially on things related to bringing a completely new human being into the world and being responsible for him or her. So I appreciate you being a sounding board.